The shake up

Today I met with one of my role models for the first time ever. Just being with her was truly awesome. She is smart, funny and so well respected. She has so much integrity and her work is truly aligned with who she is as a person. She is so lovable you just want her on your team.

We had a talk about who I am and what my blog is about.

She had a lot to say and I was ready to hear it.

She had done her research and seen that I had recently been on a panel where I decided I would be quite bitchy. That was quite unusual for me. I believe in being as non judgmental and kind as humanly possible. But for this one day I thought who cares! Let's shake it up, I am going to get in touch with my inner Joan Rivers!

But I betrayed myself and I was being phony.

I thought I got through it unscathed.. No one had questioned me or what I did.. PHEW!

But someone pulled me up and it was her. Could it be worse...

No actually it couldn't get worse but no one else was more perfect to tell it like it was.

And to be honest it was the person I would listen too.

She didn't shame me. She just reminded me of who I was.

"Your blog is about building people up and you're there pulling people down?" I was shaken up. That's not me and today I stand here ashamed that I lost myself in wanting to be different/controversial/funny/liked.

I abandoned myself.

So today I have changed things up. New blog direction and all.

"Live your message"

We need to make sure what we are and what we do is consistent.

Please take the lesson from me without going through the shame.

And remember that footage is always out there.. Maybe it wasn't that bad or maybe it was. Either way be true to you.