Stella is dead.

I have an alter ego. Her name is Stella, Stella is fabulous, loud, obnoxious and feisty and she is only around in a heightened environment which has been stimulated with Alcohol.

She used to hang out with me a lot a few years back. Friends either loved or hated her and when I met Benj they clashed or maybe crashed is a better word. He was not a fan.

Thank God my days of binge drinking are over, I got tired of waking up fretting what damage Stella had caused the night before. She had been known for being very aggressive, once she slapped a new friend across the face (as a joke- not funny to the friend) because she couldn't be a bridesmaid, this new friend and Zoe had only been friends for a couple of weeks.. Cringe.

Stella was a demanding diva and a very cheap version of my real self so she had to go. Even though friends still beg her to come out from time to time, I see the look in Benj's eyes and I know I don't want to go back there. Stella doesn't have a place in my life anymore. And let's be honest who wants to see an aggressive, married, drunk 28 year old on the streets?

I did a photo shoot yesterday for febfast.org.au I am an ambassador this year and the interview we did for the Telegraph reminded me of all those moments I cringed.

The mornings after a Stella rampage that was full of apologies for the damage she had done the night before.

I guess the alter ego came about so quickly because I didn't want to be responsible for becoming such a punish. I wanted to blame the a-a-a-acohol and get away with being a diva. Don't get me wrong there was a great side to Stella too. She is funny, vivacious and loves to get down on the dance floor but so do I. There isn't room for the two of us so she had to go.

I am a proud ambassador of feb fast because having a break from a habit (whether good or bad) gives us time to reflect if it serves us any longer?

I enjoy a glass or two with my friends and husband, but experience has taught me when it is time for some water and bed. The ugliest thing in the world is a sloppy drunk girl. Don't ever be "that" girl. Thank God Stella was never sloppy. Probably due to my vomit phobia. But diva tendencies and aggression are just as ugly. If you want to join me during February please log onto febfast.org.au and we can be sober together.. The best thing about Febfast is if you have a big event or occasion you can buy your self a "pass out" that allows you to have a night of the fasting. But I challenge you to do this. 28 days no drinking. You will lose weight and become clearer body, mind and soul.

It will also give you time to reflect if you have a little Stella explosion when you drink too much.

Take the challenge!